What do you mean? Of course she is, but this has nothing to do with her. [he was lying to himself. But he was good at that-- but mostly he was trying to keep cool. Keep calm, and not get defensive. Though his posture gives him away, even if it's only a subtle change.
That's what I believed, also. When I had just been brought to Haven, when I was alone here and did not know anyone else, I believed that signing a contract was something I would do for myself, and for everyone. That it would have nothing to do with my loved ones who were still at home in Night Vale. That it would have nothing to do with the friends I had not yet made.
I believed that when I signed my name to that page and agreed to do whatever I was told against the weight of my existence. I continued to believe that until a secret of theirs was stolen from me, and broadcasted across the monitored cell phone network. I believed it until they brought my Carlos here for three days... and then took him away again.
They will use your loved ones from home. They will ask you to betray your friends, and if you do, what will Korra say? And if you do not, what will the corporation do?
Someone I love told me once, "We are nothing to them but a means to an end, toys to be played with until we're broken. Whatever you think they can give to you, whatever you think they can do for you, they will not." He told me that, but the advice came too late for me to take. I didn't listen to him, anyway.
Be very careful, Mako. Be very careful of what you decide, and be very sure that you'll be able to live with the results of your decision. It isn't your life that you are giving them when you sign your name to that page.
[he immediately thinks of Bolin, but if there's anything that says his argument is swaying Mako, it's hard to tell. His face is carefully neutral, if a bit disapproving. He knows this is a risky, if not even outright stupid, idea. But it's something that nags at him anyway, that if there's a way to get into somewhere you don't belong... it's to become an infiltrator.
But despite his high thoughts of his own capabilities, he's still a teenager. And he's definitely not much of a killer.]
I appreciate the word of caution, but I haven't made any sort of decision yet.
[a long pause, he almost considers ending their conversation there, but then it's worth stating]
Can we keep this conversation between us? I don't want Korra getting... Well, worried. Over something I haven't decided to do.
[ Whatever he decides is up to him. He is a person with free will, for better or worse. Cecil cannot make decisions for anyone but himself. He can only offer them the truth, and his opinions, and let them decide their own way. ]
Alright. [ He agrees. He won't tell Korra. Not yet. She is a friend of his, also, and he wouldn't want to worry her needlessly, either. He will only worry her once there comes to be a need. ]
But I'd like to ask you... If you do decide to sign that contract anyway... If you meet with Matilda King, or someone else of theirs... I'd like you to talk to me after, if you are willing to, and able. I'd like to know what she is doing, what she says. I'd like to know the fine print of that contract I signed, if you are able to read it. If there is anything about why contracted employees exist, what our purpose within the company is.
It would be useful to know, if you're going to be making that sort of bad decision, anyway.
If you couldn't read it... Why did you sign it? What drove you to make a bad decision? [he tilted his head-- he had his own reasons for considering signing a contract. While he didn't mind getting his hands dirty, he knew already that this was going to put him at odds with people he hadn't even met.
And maybe Cecil was right. There was getting your hands dirty, and then there was covering them in blood, and that was enough to give him pause.]
[ It's a question he's been asked before. It's a question he's answering differently this time, all those months since the last time someone asked, now with the threat of something spiral-shaped and coming on the horizon. ]
I thought that I could help. Help myself, help all of us. That is what I actually believed.
I have helped people, by working for them. But... I am not sure what little I have done to help has been worth the gravity of the ways I have hurt those friends and strangers closest to me.
And now you're trapped by a contract you can't understand.
[mako had a feeling offering to sign a contract and backing out would end badly. And yet-- here was someone who had joined for the exact same reason he was considering.
Even if he was made to do some horrible things, and Mako had only come in with the vague notion that he was weird and possibly psychotic... It was an answer he was both hoping to receive, and wasn't quite expecting, at the same time.]
[ Working on learning Chinese to understand the contract (among other things), he means. Also working on not being trapped by the contract, by the barriers of the corporation. ]
Either way. Think about it! We have some time, before whatever terrible thing that is coming finally arrives. Limited time, but... Limited time is still plenty of time to think here in Haven, when we're are all individually and collectively struggling to survive.
[ Oh Mako. If only you were around to offer eight months ago, when Cecil needed it. ]
I have a boyfriend who is a super villain, and a scientist. He's very smart, and he knows a lot of languages. I am teaching him Modified Sumerian, though, because somehow that was not one of them. Thank you, anyway.
If you want to do something to help me... You could help me to keep an eye on Korra. I have trouble keeping track of her these days, the way she keeps running around. I am not much help to her, anymore. And she could use all the help she can get, I think.
[well, while he fully intended on keeping track of Korra, it was a rather strange request. And it was hard not to read more into it, but he nodded for the moment, a somewhat puzzled look coming over his face.]
Alright...
... And a super villain? [that... earned an eyebrow raise. Cecil, why are you dating a super villain.]
[ Why are you focusing on the super villain part when that is not even remotely important compared to the scientist part? Really, Mako. Get your priorities straight. ]
[primarily, he feels concern that Cecil is not considering the super villain part worth comment.
And there are trace hints of amusement, because who is he to judge. His brother dated a psycho ice princess, so it's not like he really went that far up in stature.]
Riiiiiiight. Okay. Well, you don't have to worry about Korra. I wasn't going to just abandon her, no matter what.
[ It's a small reassurance, but more than believe Mako will be able to protect Korra, or even try... Cecil just wants him to remember that Korra exists, that she is here, that he has a friend who is in enough danger already, without yet another Yao Corporation employee 'on her side.' That's why. ]
You're welcome.
Good luck, Mako. Good luck... and good night.
[ Cecil it's daytime, please stop. He'll walk away with a wave, but he'll be keeping an eye on Mako, anyway, after this. And waiting to hear from him again. ]
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Korra was the only friend he really had there.]
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I believed that when I signed my name to that page and agreed to do whatever I was told against the weight of my existence. I continued to believe that until a secret of theirs was stolen from me, and broadcasted across the monitored cell phone network. I believed it until they brought my Carlos here for three days... and then took him away again.
They will use your loved ones from home. They will ask you to betray your friends, and if you do, what will Korra say? And if you do not, what will the corporation do?
Someone I love told me once, "We are nothing to them but a means to an end, toys to be played with until we're broken. Whatever you think they can give to you, whatever you think they can do for you, they will not." He told me that, but the advice came too late for me to take. I didn't listen to him, anyway.
Be very careful, Mako. Be very careful of what you decide, and be very sure that you'll be able to live with the results of your decision. It isn't your life that you are giving them when you sign your name to that page.
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But despite his high thoughts of his own capabilities, he's still a teenager. And he's definitely not much of a killer.]
I appreciate the word of caution, but I haven't made any sort of decision yet.
[a long pause, he almost considers ending their conversation there, but then it's worth stating]
Can we keep this conversation between us? I don't want Korra getting... Well, worried. Over something I haven't decided to do.
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Alright. [ He agrees. He won't tell Korra. Not yet. She is a friend of his, also, and he wouldn't want to worry her needlessly, either. He will only worry her once there comes to be a need. ]
But I'd like to ask you... If you do decide to sign that contract anyway... If you meet with Matilda King, or someone else of theirs... I'd like you to talk to me after, if you are willing to, and able. I'd like to know what she is doing, what she says. I'd like to know the fine print of that contract I signed, if you are able to read it. If there is anything about why contracted employees exist, what our purpose within the company is.
It would be useful to know, if you're going to be making that sort of bad decision, anyway.
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And maybe Cecil was right. There was getting your hands dirty, and then there was covering them in blood, and that was enough to give him pause.]
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I thought that I could help. Help myself, help all of us. That is what I actually believed.
I have helped people, by working for them. But... I am not sure what little I have done to help has been worth the gravity of the ways I have hurt those friends and strangers closest to me.
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And now you're trapped by a contract you can't understand.
[mako had a feeling offering to sign a contract and backing out would end badly. And yet-- here was someone who had joined for the exact same reason he was considering.
Even if he was made to do some horrible things, and Mako had only come in with the vague notion that he was weird and possibly psychotic... It was an answer he was both hoping to receive, and wasn't quite expecting, at the same time.]
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[ Working on learning Chinese to understand the contract (among other things), he means. Also working on not being trapped by the contract, by the barriers of the corporation. ]
Either way. Think about it! We have some time, before whatever terrible thing that is coming finally arrives. Limited time, but... Limited time is still plenty of time to think here in Haven, when we're are all individually and collectively struggling to survive.
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How are you learning? If it's the same stuff as in the library, I can help.
[he wanted to ask about the explosions-- but at the same time, he figured... Cecil would be there tomorrow, if he needed, right?]
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I have a boyfriend who is a super villain, and a scientist. He's very smart, and he knows a lot of languages. I am teaching him Modified Sumerian, though, because somehow that was not one of them. Thank you, anyway.
If you want to do something to help me... You could help me to keep an eye on Korra. I have trouble keeping track of her these days, the way she keeps running around. I am not much help to her, anymore. And she could use all the help she can get, I think.
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Alright...
... And a super villain? [that... earned an eyebrow raise. Cecil, why are you dating a super villain.]
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[ Why are you focusing on the super villain part when that is not even remotely important compared to the scientist part? Really, Mako. Get your priorities straight. ]
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And there are trace hints of amusement, because who is he to judge. His brother dated a psycho ice princess, so it's not like he really went that far up in stature.]
Riiiiiiight. Okay. Well, you don't have to worry about Korra. I wasn't going to just abandon her, no matter what.
Thanks for the help, Cecil.
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You're welcome.
Good luck, Mako. Good luck... and good night.
[
Cecil it's daytime, please stop.He'll walk away with a wave, but he'll be keeping an eye on Mako, anyway, after this. And waiting to hear from him again. ]