[ It's a question he's been asked before. It's a question he's answering differently this time, all those months since the last time someone asked, now with the threat of something spiral-shaped and coming on the horizon. ]

I thought that I could help. Help myself, help all of us. That is what I actually believed.

I have helped people, by working for them. But... I am not sure what little I have done to help has been worth the gravity of the ways I have hurt those friends and strangers closest to me.